I fucking hate my life so god damn much. Had a tech job before covid, got fired during covid, applied to any and every job I could, nobody would hire me other than this retail job and let me tell you something, this fucking job makes me want to end my fucking life. There are no good days, whenever something good happens it’s like multiple bad things have to happen to even things out, I hate dealing with fucking self centered, high and mighty coworkers/management, I hate dealing with aggressive and racist customers, hate feeling like I’m being sabotaged constantly, hate being blamed for anything and everything because I don’t talk and people know I won’t fight back, hate having all these fucking rumors about me, people gossiping about me, hate having to do multiple peoples’ jobs on my own, hate having to do a job that should take 4 people by myself, hate having to skip breaks because of the amount of work I’m given, hate dealing with third party workers with attitude problems, hate dealing with people from other departments, etc. When I say this job makes me want to fucking end it I mean it. This is not a joke, this isn’t venting, I mean this shit whole fucking heartedly. I’m in so much fucking pain, I can’t do this anymore. I’m miserable, depressed and alone - and I mean truly alone, I have nobody to talk to. I have no partner, no friends, no nothing - maybe my therapist when I have the energy to call them. And I can’t find a new job because I work 10 hour shifts, 5 days a week and I’m so fucking tired to do anything that I just lay in bed all day because my body fucking hurts. I’m so tired that I have no motivation at all. I just can’t live like this anymore.